The Gospel story this morning is of the famous story of doubting Thomas, the Apostle who insisted on touching Jesus after his resurrection in order to prove beyond a shadow of a doubt that Jesus was physically resurrected.  It is a story I believe many Christians identify with because we have all had our doubts at one time or another and a story that, once I saw it in the readings this morning, changed my mind about whether I would do a homily in addition to reading the morning prayer.

 

This story is not really a favorite of mine.  It is one of those stories that the Jesus Seminar folks probably label as unlikely, or in the area of folklore, rather than as one that represents historical facts.  But I believe it is an important story, one that speaks to us on many levels.

 

Thomas was not present with all of the disciples when Jesus appeared to them initially.  Later, in the story, Jesus appears again to the disciples and when Thomas sees Jesus, Thomas is convinced.  “My Lord and my God” is his trembling response.  Thomas was convinced and legend has it that he lived the rest of his life following Jesus and died a martyr’s death..

 

Two thousand years later, we can look at this gospel story and see the reasons for why John might want to include it.  There was controversy in the early Church about whether Jesus was physically resurrected or if, instead, his resurrection was a spiritual one only.  Indeed there were some who believed that Jesus was never physically present at all, but was instead a Divine avatar throughout his life.  John, in writing his Gospel, was writing to these Gnostic Christians, supporting what eventually was to become Christian orthodoxy and presenting principles that were foundational for Christian dogma for centuries.  The humanity of Jesus.  The bodily resurrection.  Jesus oneness with God.

 

We were not there two thousand years ago and we are very aware of the weakness ancients had to discriminate between fact and folklore.  We all accept that Jesus was a man who walked among us. There are few who today believe Jesus to have been a ghostly avatar throughout his life and ministry, none who are Gnostics of the sort that John was writing to.  However, there is no small number, even among devout followers of the man Jesus, who, like Thomas, still wonder about the Churches historic claim that Jesus physically rose from the dead or if his resurrection was of a spiritual nature, the kind of spiritual immortality that has sustained his message of good news to the poor for millennia.  Scientific and historical methods have changed since the time of Jesus and our questions have changed, too.  These events did happen 2000 years ago.

 

So we can’t stand with Thomas and be convinced.  We have an old story, from an old scripture, from a writer who was writing, as Marissa pointed out to us last week, at least 50 years after Jesus was alive.

 

So what does this ancient story have to tell us?

 

We cannot stand with Thomas and see Jesus, but we have our own crises of faith.  Thomas uttered his exclamation of awe, and every Sunday we utter exclamations of worship and awe.  But after Thomas acknowledged Jesus – proclaiming his faith and belief in the resurrection, he went out and for the rest of his life he served Jesus. He lived his life in the certainty that, as Marissa said last Sunday, “God wins, God always wins.”  He lived his life as if God really is the ruler of the universe and the one who sets the standards of ultimate value and worth.

 

That is the challenge that I think is presented to us by Thomas’s lack of faith and his changed response of faith when hit over the head with God’s victory.  It is a challenge that faces us now.  We have many doubts in this congregation.  We all know Jesus lived on earth, told some of the stories and uttered some of the words in the Bible attributed to him and that he courageously lived unto death according to what he believed was the will of his Father in Heaven.  Unlike Thomas, we are not so concerned as to whether the resurrection is a literal physical resurrection or one of many explanations involving a spiritual resurrection – this is an academic question and there are a variety of opinions that exist comfortably among those in this congregation.  However, there is a question of faith that all of us are concerned about:  whether this congregation will survive and what we can do to make it thrive.  This is our question of faith.

 

And this question centers, in my opinion, on whether we really do believe that God always wins.  Do we have the faith to act as if the Kingdom of God really is here?  Can we conduct our lives according to the values of Jesus – that the first will be last and the last first?  That the poor are blessed because they will receive the Kingdom of heaven?  That we cannot serve Mammon – prioritize our financial health – and serve God, too?

 

This congregation will live and die not according to whether it maintains a good fiscal outlook.  It will live and die to the degree that it serves God’s purposes.  It will not thrive because the new space is going to be more modern and more attractive.  It will live and die according to the degree that it serves God’s purposes.  And it will not be saved by a vestry that makes the most fiscally prudent decisions, risking turning  down opportunities to use the parish resources to serve the poor in the hopes that less financially risky opportunities present themselves later.  It will live and die according to whether it serves God’s purposes.   It will only thrive to the degree that we do what Thomas did:  believe, and then go beyond the mere flattery of words and follow the words with actions that truly demonstrate that we believe that God won.  In today’s terms that does not mean that we have to resolve theological questions or all agree on some kind of esoteric dogma regarding metaphysical events of 2000 years ago.  Today the  question of faith is whether we will live according to Jesus’ priorities.  And we don’t need to have any particular kind of special faith to know what Jesus priorities were.  It is clear from the historical record that Jesus was no friend of superficial religiosity, but was, instead a friend of those who were the outcast of society, the poor, the tax collectors, the Samaritans, the strangers, the homeless, the orphans, and the widows – the great unwashed who are often not welcome in this neighborhood.

 

I believe that God won and Susan and I are here because we believe that the core of this congregation also believes that God won.  We are here because we feel this is the best place for us to try to follow Jesus during this time of our lives and we believe that all of you here in your own unique way are also trying to follow Jesus.  We pray with you that this congregations thrives and that the choices that are ultimately made turn out to be the choices that God would have us make.  If this congregation thrives, we will know that they were.

 

Amen.